.:.MeLiSsA.:.

new blog

Wed, 02 Jun 2004 02:10:19 GMT

hey guys... yeah i have a new location now.... www.silentscreams.blogdrive.com yeah i'll be writing in there now.. this one is useless lol leave me sme comments and such in the other one

i'll meet u there...no matter where your life takes u to..

Fri, 21 May 2004 22:58:11 GMT

hey guys.. well today was the last day to dress out at P.E... the end is coming closer... we had Math Exams today too.. i think i did pretty good on them... or at least i hope i did... but you know how that goes... lol i dont think i ever get what i want in school. so whats the point in rambeling about it? lol.. i dont think there is one

but anyways... yeah today was pretty depressing... i didnt want to do anything.. because i was so out of it... and then in chorus... they were holding auditions for reflection.. and i was going to try out for that before i found out i was moving... and then now everyone is like.. omg what am i going to do without you????it breaks my heart to see them sad because of me.. its like something i cant even control too.. and they act like i can just tell my mom that i dont wanna move.. and BaM it wont happen.. but its totally not like that.. we have bought the house and everything... its

inevitable now.. nothing we can do...

but w/e i gotta go

uhm

Fri, 21 May 2004 13:33:15 GMT

yeah.. uhm im sorry everyone for everything i've ever done to hurt you.. or not done ... that hurts you...

*she kisses everyone good bye and waves her middle finger high there never gonna mess with her again...*

i love you all...

i GiVe Up

Wed, 19 May 2004 13:10:15 GMT

well yeah last night REALLY sucked... i cried myself to sleep and even then my mind was racing... but yeah everything is just so fucking confusing and i dont know where to turn any more... i feel like everything i do i will end up a failure to at least one person in my life... you know either my mom or dad... who knows if im lucky maybe both.... :( but whatever.. who even cares anymore... i give up

hmm...mean ppl suck

Wed, 19 May 2004 02:37:59 GMT

why do i let these things get to me like i do? i should just give up and let it all roll.. but i always seem to care for some stupid reason.. owell screw you all and have a nice day... night

nOthEr FuCkiNg Day

Tue, 18 May 2004 13:34:20 GMT

Hey guys, whats going on? well im just gettng ready for school... hopin you guys are doin okay... had a bit of a rough night.. but i'm alright, looking forward to thursday next week... (day after im fully moved & school is over) woop woop hehe but yeah i'm soo tired of things here.. meh it'll all be better soon.. and its cool because i actually have the option to do that... well its not really an option... its more like something i HAVE to do.. but its like a blessing

well who knows anymore.. i got absolutely no sleep last night... i was tired as fuck because i took my Melatonin.. and then my mind started racing.. and even though i had taken those... i still couldnt sleep.. i ended up just laying there... so about 1:30 this morning when i was doin my Crunches i got a call on my cell.. yeah deff surprised me.. lol but yeah hmm

things are so wierd lol... people are so weird... but g2g ttul!!

now.. and again

Mon, 17 May 2004 12:52:45 GMT

Hey... well im back to this hell hole in the sand once again.. i was over at my new house all weekend.. and i hate coming back to this place it sucks.. i want out of here so bad.. but i cant til schools over because i wouldnt want to leave my friends... and i was just informed that i could if i REALLY wanted too.. and i do... but i have to stay here for my friends... so idk i guess its all just whatever

i have realized recently that no matter what i do.. its always going to be the wrong thing in someones eyes... no matter where i turn.. im turning the wrong way with my eyes closed... and theres not always padding on the walls like in basketball.. a lot of the time they are just concrete walls waiting to beat the fuck out of me... no matter what i do.. they're always there... and my friends... are just what i fall to in the end.. no matter where i turn i will fall... sometimes i fall to through the cracks in the floor and my cover gets blown... its hard to tell who your real friends are until they finally notice why you're faking that oh so lonesome smile...

i went to the evanescence concert yesterday... it was sooo amazing.. everything totally kicked my ass... first band that played was pretty good for a local band... there name was KLiK pretty cool chicks... talked to them afterwards.. the next band to play... Collective Soul... they were pretty good.. but i wouldnt go to another live concert just for them... and of Course.. AMY LEE'S EVANESCENCE... shes fucking amazing... god so fucking talented it makes me sick! lol but yeah im running late so i should get ready for school and such.. talk to you later.. i'll TRY to write when i get home MWAH

this entry is dedicated to the one i cant live w/o

Wed, 12 May 2004 13:35:46 GMT

Patrick.. Please Hear me when i say i love you... dont let it go right through you...I love you with all of my heart... i dont know anyother way to explain it... you are my excuse to live.. and i would not want it any other way.. i want you here with me forever... i know things have been rough lately.. but they will all get better... everything will be okay.. we'll be in eachothers arms soon enough... im sorry for making you think certain things.. i am trying to help u see how much you mean to me.. hopefully this helps at least a little... i dont know what else to do... i wish i could look you in the eyes and tell you i love you... but unfortunately.. yeah... i want no other but you... you are my shooting star...

*my only hope, my only peace, my only joy, my only.. strength*

i love you.. ttu when i get home

h

Mon, 10 May 2004 13:03:31 GMT

Done any drugs? nah
Drank alcohol? yea
Ever had sex? wouldnt you like to know haha nahh
Fallen in love? yea
Fallen in love online? yea
Met someone from online? yea
Tried to set a bug on fire with a magnifying glass? yea
Torn off a lightening bug light and smeared it anywhere on your body? no lol
Made a snow angel? yea..man it doesnt fucking snow here...
Dreamed you could fly? once or twice
Ever had a job, if so what? only babysitting.. but will have one soon
Bungee jumped? nah...but graduation... lol me and Eliana are gonna make it a point to jump of of anything we can find!! lol
Felt betrayed? yea..more often than not
Attempted suicide? yea.. more than once...
Been in a car accident? yea...
Had a friend die? *deep breath*... lets not go there..
Had a close family member die? yea
Seen the eiffel tower? nope
Seen the statue of liberty? nope
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell? yea
Gone out with someone for their looks? nah
Their reputation? nah
Met anyone famous? kinda
Been on radio or tv? both
Been on stage? yea
Intentionally hurt someone? yea lol
Dumped someone? yea
Been dumped? yea
Been to Europe? nope
Been convicted of a crime? no
Been in a mosh pit? yep
Been asked for an autograph? yea.. LOL crazy ass bitches at Cleets shows and whatnot..LOL
Been toilet papering? Once or twice...
Been toilet papered? nope
Ever had a detention? yea
Cried over someone of the opposite sex? yea..LOL more often than not.....
Cried over someone of the same sex? not sexually lol but yea
Had toilet paper stuck to your shoe? no lol
Been caught with your fly unzipped? not that i can remember
Had your pants fall down in public? lol yes been shanked many times
Been in a fight? LOL HELL YES
Cheated on someone? never..
Hitchhiked? in the middle of the skyway lol haha
Picked up a hitchhiker? nah
Had your appendix and/or tonsils removed? yea, tonsils
Gone skinny dipping? nott yettt LOL

You
x Name :: Melissa
x Birthdate :: January.1.1990
x Sex :: gurl
x Label :: .. Labels kill

What do you think of
x Smoking :: ehh ill eventually try it
x Sex ::
x School :: its alright.. get to see my friends..
x Life :: good
x Britney Spears :: ehh.. WHORE
x America :: reminds me of that annoying "god bless america" song.. but yea i live there lol
x Lord of the Rings :: stupid.. never saw them
x Atheists :: up to them
x Public Bathrooms :: as long as their not disgusting
x Hobos :: aww their cuuute lol haha
x Gays :: eh..Gay guys are fun.. Gay girls are alright.. unless they hit on me.. then im over it lol
x Black :: I'll where black until they come out with a darker color

Your School and Morning Life
x When you wake up, are you violent towards your alarm clock? no..
x What is your most common breakfast food? dont eat breakfast
x How long does it take you to tame your hair? i dont know.. not too long
x How do you get to school? god damn bus
x When does school start and end? Uhm 9:15-4:05
x Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend that goes to your school? no...
x Oh yes, what grade are you in? 8th
x What are your electives? Chorus...
x What do you hate most about your school? how quickly shit gets spread.. and the fact that everyone judges everyone.. Labels for everyone... FUCK THAT

Your night life
x Bedtime? 12 - 2 ish
x Regardless of your bedtime, when do you fall asleep? same as up there
x Do you sneak out when your parents sleep? nah my mom never sleeps
x Do you sleep with any electronics on? Radio or something with music

Random Questions
x What song is in your head now? Grenade Jumper- Fall Out Boy
x Who is the sluttiest pop star? i dont know.. Prob Christina or Brittney
x Isn't Italian food great? nah.. its ok i guess.. but i love MEXICAN lol
x Have you ever run over an animal? ...Damn squirrels...
x Are you a frequent consumer when it comes to Girl Scout cookies? noo lol
x What is the last thing you'd like to tell me? uhh im not ready for school

EVER DATED ANYONE WHO WAS YOUR BEST FRIEND BEFORE?: yea
WOULD YOU CONSIDER DATING YOUR BEST FRIEND'S EX?: eh well i have...
HAVE YOU KISSED YOUR BEST FRIEND'S EX?: yeaa.. well not like my best friend.. but a couple of my best friends lol

Daily Routine

// YOUR ROOM, WAKING UP //
01. What color are your walls? Purplish.. gonna be hott pink when i move
02. What color is your bedspread/sheets? blue.. gonna be black satin when i move
03. What color is your rug? uhmm.. lol
04. Any posters in your room? used to have a bunch.. not so much anymore
06. Do you have a phone? yea
07. Do you have your own computer? ntnn not yet
08. Do you have a desk? yea.. for the computer
09. What are your most treasured belongings in your room? HAVE NONE
10. What are your most favorite things in your room? cell lol
11. Do you have any fancy lights in your room? just this glovo light thingy

// GETTING READY //

01. What is the first thing you do when you wake up? check my cell for messages.. or turn the radio down
02. Anything unusual? no
03. Do you pick out your clothes the night before school? yea..sometimes
04. Do you try your best to look cute for school? yea...sometimes.. lately i've just been like "fuck it" lol

// SCHOOL //
01. What color is your backpack? dont have one
02. Do you try your best when it comes to work? no
03. Do you listen or doodle? doodle lol well both
04. BE QUIET - we all know you doodle, but what do you doodle? either writing notes or drawling stars lol or writing all over peoples books that they love me lol or writing on Brian that hes going to be single forever... haha jk

05. Do you eat your cafeteria food, or go out? hungry howies..sometimes
06. What do you do right after school is over? go home.. lol

// HOME //
When you come home are you. . .
01. Miserable? sometimes
02. Happy? somtimes
03. Tired? usually
04. ALONE? yeah.. but occassionally i have ppl here

// OTHER //

01. Do you take walks around your neighborhood sometimes? yea
02. What are some hobbies of yours? talkin on the phone and the internet
03. Do you collect anything? nah
04. What do you do in your spare time? talk on the phone, get online, go out
05. Are you in love, or at least falling? yes

// NIGHT TIME //

01. What do you do before you go to bed? get online lol or pick out my outfit
02. Do you kiss your parents/guardians goodnight, or just say "goodnight"? eh my mom kisses me goodnite... i usually dont kiss her back lol
03. What way do you sleep (ex: on your side, tummy, etc.)? on my side
04. Do you like your life? its not too bad.. could still be better

Starting Time: 6:45

Name: Melissa
Nicknames: Mel Lyssa Em... and then theres all my slutty, Skank bitchy nicknames

Friends
Best Friends: Vicki, Sydney, Taylor, PK, ChriS, Cleet, Eliana, Mike, Sarah..Ryan Jenna Angel Dylan.. theres more but yeah..
Person You've Been Friends With For The Longest: Jenna probly
Funniest Friend: Eliana Mike Sarah
Craziest Friend: Eliana
Dumbest Friend: me
Athletic Friend: Jenna
Loudest Friend: Jenna
Shyest Friend: Ryan most deff
Who Do u Get Advice From: All

On Yourself
Height: 5'5 ish
D.O.B: 1.1.90
Star Sign: Capricorn
Righty/Lefty: Righty/both.. depends on my mood... lol
Eye Color: brown..bleh
Normal shoe size: 8-9
Shoe Brand: Etnies
Have you cracked any body parts? Ribs
Siblings: sister,Brother
Email Address: Wick3dstar612@hotmail.com
Screen Name: XxRoXyChiCk127xX
Boyfriend/Girlfriend: Patrick
Do you like anyone? yes ^
Who? my boyfriend
How long have you liked him? for a while.....

Have You Ever
Got In a Fight: deff
Liked a Teacher: nah
Killed some one: damn.. no
Laughed So Hard You Peed Your Pants: no haha but i know someone who has
Ever ate a tub of ice cream in one day? lol... guilty
Ran Into a Glass Door: yea... ahaha at Heathers Bday.. lol My whole wet body print was smacked onto the door.. LOL
Kicked The Wall and broke Every Toe in that Foot: no
Been in Love: yea
Gone skinny dipping: nope
Had Sex: nahh ...
Asked out someone: ntnn
Gotten hit by a car: nope.. im waiting for that one
Ran into a parked car: yes lol

On Guys
Boxers or Briefs: boxers
Long Hair or Short: either really
Dark or Light: same
6-pack or Muscular: omg both
Body or Personality: both please lol but more personality than body
Sportsy or Outdoorsy: either
Good Guy/ Bad Guy: either
Light Hair/ Dark Hair: dark
Hat/No Hat: dont matter

This or That
Coke or Pepsi: pepsi
Taco Bell or McDonald: TAcO bElL bIh!
Cats or Dogs: KITTY
Coffee or Tea: Tea
Sour or Sweet: Sour
Chocolate Milk or Hot Chocolate: hot chocolate
Vanilla or Chocolate: vanilla
Cake or Cookies: cookies
Ice Hockey or Roller Hockey: ice hockey
Day or Night: Night
Lights on or off: off
Ocean or Pool: ocean
Summer or spring: summer
Winter or Fall: winter

Favorites
Food: uhmm
Car: Celica... im determined//
Store: Hollister, Delias, Pac Sun, American Eagle, Hot Topic
Candy: hmm hershys chocolate bars
Restaurant: dunno lol
Thing to Do: talk or hang with friends
Number: 36
Drink: pepsi.. or a smirnoff.. either
Animal: white tiger
Holiday: valentines day
Quote(s): "you cant help who you love your not supose to" -- Save The Last Dance..
Band/singer: Evanescence
Song: You'll think of me.. that one guy lol CHRIS KNOWS
Scent: Love Spell - Victorias Secret.. hey, even guys wear it haha love you john
T.V. Show: One Tree Hill
Radio Station: 97.1, 97.9, 99.5
Place: Anywere but here

In the Future
Who's going to be by Your Side: i dont know..
Where are you Gonna Live: yea.. prolly here lol

College: dunno yet
What are u going to be doing: FBI lol

Random Questions
Explain a "random question"? wtf
What's your wife/husband gonna look like? i dont know
What are you wearing right now? jeans and my rain cafe shirt
What does your screen name stand for? roxy chick.... its kindof self explanatory dont u think
Favorite movies: RAIN MAN lol, Forest Gump, NEMO
Where were you born? i unno
Favorite Place to be kissed: wouldnt you like to know
Favorite day of the week: Saturday nites
Bedtime: 12 - 2
Hottest person: my boyfriend

well guys im off to school.. i'll tryn write when i get home.. i love you w/ all my heart mwahhh

fuck you

Fri, 07 May 2004 02:56:19 GMT

What is your name?:	Melissa
Are you named after anyone?:	ntnn
What's your screename?:	XxRoXyChiCk127xX
Would you name a child of yours after you?:	no
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?:	my mom always told me if i was a guy she wanted to name me jake..
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?:	Eliana.. i think thats a pretty name
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?:	yea.. Melisa Mellisa Mellissa Malissa Malisa Mallisa Malissa... god theres like 5000000 diff ones.. it sucks.. i hate it.. if i write my name and then show it to you and you still spell it wrong.. then somethins wrong with you
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?:	yes.. it reminds me of my dad
Basics
Your gender::	female
Straight/Gay/Bi::	straight as an arrow
Single?:	ntnn
If not, do you want to be?:	no
Birthdate::	Jan 1
Your age::	14
Age you act::	eh i dont know.. older and younger.. it depends
Age you wish you were::	22.. bars.. drinks.. driving.. away from here.. damn what more could you want!?!LOL yeah buddy
Your height::	5'3
Eye color::	brown blehhh
Happy with it?:	no i want blue
Hair color::	uhmm for now.. its like blonde with lowlights in it
Happy with it?:	nope i want it darker
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous::	righty/ ambidextrous.. it depends on my mood.. if im happy and mello i can do both.. if im pissed.. its right hand only.. lol wierd.. i know
Your living arrangement::	my house, my mom.. everyother fucking weekend i have to go to my dads
Your family::	mom
Have any pets?:	no... but ima beg to get a kitty.. lol i also want a snake
Whats your job?:	dont have one yet
Piercings?:	ears
Tattoos?:	none...
Obsessions?:	a few
Addictions?:	internet friends fone...Patrick lol
Do you speak another language?:	not really.. i know a bit in spanish, but that doesnt mean i can speak it fluently
Have a favorite quote?:	yeaa..
Do you have a webpage?:	just this n that stupid xanga...
Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?:	deff
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?:	nope
Do you have any secrets?:	yea
Do you hate yourself?:	yeaa.. more than you'd guess
Do you like your handwriting?:	nope..it SUCKS
Do you have any bad habits?:	yea...
What is the compliment you get from most people?:	i have "deep eyes"
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?:	What not to do..
What's your biggest fear?:	losing control of my life.. and going back under
Can you sing?:	people say i can.. that is why i will not voice my opinion on here..
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?:	nope dont think so
Are you a loner?:	no..not yet..
What are your #1 priorities in life?:	uhh my friends are like number 1
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?:	i dont know.. prolly not.. im a bitch
Are you a daredevil?:	haha, you could say that...
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?:	god i hate like everythign about me.. but i love the fact that you love me..
Are you passive or agressive?:	ehh passive?
Do you have a journal?:	used to.. im burning it soon...lol
What is your greatest strength and weakness?:	i dont know
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?:	my looks, or my intelligence level.... im stupid lol
Do you think you are emotionally strong?:	for the most part
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?:	omg yea... it would take the rest of my life to explain them all to you... so i'll just go on regretting
Do you think life has been good so far?:	ehh on and off
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?:	dont make the small shit so big
What do you like the most about your body?:	nothing
And least?:	everything.. thighs mostly and tummy.. im very insecure about my weight.. even though im told i shouldnt be... im workin on it
Do you think you are good looking?:	nope
Are you confident?:	no
What is the fictional character you are most like?:	not sure..
Are you perceived wrongly?:	more then not
Do You...
Smoke?:	no
Do drugs?:	no
Read the newspaper?:	no
Pray?:	sometimes
Go to church?:	no
Talk to strangers who IM you?:	yea
Sleep with stuffed animals?:	only my piggy that Dylan got for me
Take walks in the rain?:	tons
Talk to people even though you hate them?:	yea.. but its usually just to piss them off or cause they dont know i hate them
Drive?:	uhmm
Like to drive fast?:	yess
Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?:	no
Hurt yourself?:	yes
Been out of the country?:	no
Eaten something that made other people sick?:	i dont know
Been in love?:	yes
Done drugs?:	no
Gone skinny dipping?:	no
Had a medical emergency?:	not really
Had surgery?:	yeah
Ran away from home?:	maybe once or twice.. always ended up coming back before anyone knew...
Played strip poker?:	nah
Gotten beaten up?:	no... haha
Beaten someone up?:	UhMm.. lol ELIANA I LOVE YOU
Been picked on?:	deff
Been on stage?:	yea
Slept outdoors?:	yea
Thought about suicide?:	yea...
Pulled an all nighter?:	yea........
If yes, what is your record?:	eh went to bed at like 6:30 the next night.. lol
Gone one day without food?:	yea.....
Talked on the phone all night?:	yea
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?:	never
Slept all day?:	yea
Killed someone?:	no
Made out with a stranger?:
Had sex with a stranger?:	nahh
Thought you're going crazy?:	yea
Kissed the same sex?:	no
Done anything sexual with the same sex?:	no
Been betrayed?:	yes.. more often then not
Had a dream that came true?:	yea... lol all the time

Met a famous person?:	kinda
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?:	well.. that squirrel.. omg... im sooo sorry
On purpose?:	no
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?:	yea.. never again

Been on radio/tv?:	yeh both.. wooohooo
Been in a mosh-pit?:	mhmmm
Had a nervous breakdown?:	again.. more often then not
Bungee jumped?:	no.. deff gonna do that shit
Had a dream that kept coming back?:	its called a reoccuring dream dumbass.. and yes
Beliefs
Belive in life on other planets?:	somewhat.. we cant be so selfish to believe that we are the only life in the universe..
Miracles?:	depends
Astrology?:	nah
Magic?:	no
God?:	yea
Satan?:	yea
Santa?:	no
Ghosts?:	no
Luck?:	yea
Love at first sight?:	very possible.. but i doubt it
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?:	yea
Witches?:	no
Easter bunny?:	no
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?:	depends on the person..
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?:	nope
Do you wish on stars?:	sometimes...
Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?:	ehh kinda
Do you think God has a gender?:	sure
Do you believe in organized religion?:	no
Where do you think we go when we die?:	well.. im goin to hell.. dont knwo bout you guys lol
Friends
Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?:	lol yes
Who is your best friend?:	i dont have a best friend.. well i do.. but there's a shit load of them lol
Who's the one person that knows most about you?:	i dont know.. probably Vicki & Patrick..
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?:	"Everything happens for a reason.. you just hafta wait for the reason"
Your favourite inside joke?:	hmm wayy too many
Thing you're picked on most about?:	being stupid
Who's your longest known friend?:	Jenna Withrow.. known her since preschool...
Newest?:	David
Shyest?:	Ryan deff LOL walllll Jk buddy
Funniest?:	all of 'em
Sweetest?:	aw Emily Fraiser
Closest?:	Vicki, Patrick.. Ryan & Chris
Weirdest?:	uhmm lol dunno
Smartest?:	Vicki
Ditziest?:	Taylor.. lOL
Friends you miss being close to the most?:	Amy,Caitlan,Taylor,Sammy.......
Last person you talked to online?:	Chris
Who do you talk to most online?:	Patrick, Ryan & Chris
Who are you on the phone with most?:	Eliana,Mikey,& Patrick
Who do you trust most?:	i have major trust issues.. i trust everyone.. but i dont trust the devil inside them
Who listens to your problems?:	Patrick Vicki Chris n Ryan
Who do you fight most with?:	Mary..
Who's the nicest?:	hmm thats hard.. lol
Who's the most outgoing?:	i dont know
Who's the best singer?:	uhmmm who knows
Who's on your shit-list?:	og if you wanted me to put them all.. youd spend hours just reading the one list
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?:	not really
Who's your second family?:	i dont know.. dont thikn i have one...
Do you always feel understood?:	never
Who's the loudest friend?:	if there is someone in this whole fuckin world who is louder than Jenna Withrow.. i feel bad for them
Do you trust others easily?:	yea i either trust everyone.. or trust no one
Who's house were you last at?:	Katie's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in::	Patrick
Do your friends know you?:	not really..
Friend that lives farthest away::	caitlan quinn lol
Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?:	no
What do you find romantic?:	dunno
Turn-on?:	haha
Turn-off?:	lieing.. definatly
First kiss?:	ugh Matt Taylor
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?:	uhmm been there done that
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going:	yea cause then you know what their really like.. or know more about them so you have somethin to talk about lol
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out:	not really.. cause it sucks gettin turned down
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv:	eh.. no..
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?:	no
What is best about the opposite sex?:	oh you know haha uhh i dont know
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?:	how quickly they change their minds
What's the last present someone gave you?:	dunno
Are you in love?:	sigh yes
Do you consider your significant other hot?:	deff
Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?:	no one..
You wanted to kill?:	haha lets just say tonite was interesting.. and so was last nite
That you laughed at?:	Katie.. shes crazy
That laughed at you?:	i dont know
That turned you on?:	no one
You went shopping with?:	Katie
That broke your heart?:	heh.. lets leave that alone as well
To disappoint you?:	somebody who lied to me
To ask you out?:	Patrick...
To make you cry?:	bleh no comment
To brighten up your day?:	Katie
That you thought about?:	well the people in those questions..Patrick
You saw a movie with?:	Katie..
You talked to on the phone?:	Patrick
You talked to through IM/ICQ?:	Chris
You saw?:	Katie...
You lost?:	uhhhh
Right This Moment...
Are you going out?:	yeh
Will it be with your significant other?:	nope
Or some random person?:	Eliana
What are you wearing right now?:	UhMmMmM
Body part you're touching right now::	uHm... nothing
What are you worried about right now?:	a lot of things...lets not go there
What book are you reading?:	good against evil.....
What's on your mousepad?:	this thing i drew a long as time ago
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling::	tired, lonely...bored
Are you bored?:	^^^
Are you tired?:	^^^
Are you talking to anyone online?:	im away
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?:	Patrick
Are you lonely or content?:	lonely
Are you listening to music?:	yuh...

yeah guys.. my comp is back up and working.. and i'll write in the morning.. i love you all goodnight.. oh yeah..

AND HAILEY... DONT FUCKING USE OTHER PEOPLES POEMS AND SAY THEY ARE YOURS... YOU FUCKING FAKE... TRYING TO USE MY SHIT AND MAKE IT YOURS.. I THINK FUCKING NOT